It really hurts thinking about the fact that you know you deserve more
You know what you offer
You know how special you are
But you always seem to feel like no one else sees it
No one else understands
I thought he understood
I thought we were good
I thought maybe he could be the one
Maybe this is when I get my fairytale ending
I get what I always longed for
Someone who loves me for me
Someone who isn’t ashamed of me
Who sees me for exactly who I am
Lets all the good things about me overshadow my flaws
Someone who stares in awe of me when I’m not looking
But then again I really am looking but just out of the corner of my eye
Someone who genuinely wants me
But I was wrong
It was all an act if you ask me
Got me in the beginning
We had sex
It was cool
You want to keep me around cause I’m cool
I cook for you, I care about you
Everything you want
But not enough to be your girlfriend
You use your past relationship as a pawn
But that’s not what it is about
Is it?
I’m just not enough for you
Am I?
But you know?
That’s okay
Let me go
I’ll leave, gladly
No need to pretend anymore
No need to act like this is actually what you want
When all you really wanted was someone to lay with
Someone to cook for you
Someone to keep you company
But you don’t want ME
You want the things I can do for you
You don’t want my random attitudes
You don’t want my obnoxious laugh
You don’t want my obsession with 90s r&b love songs
You don’t want it
You just wanted someone
And shit maybe I did too
Maybe I only wanted you for the same reasons you only wanted me
Someone to keep me company
But what if I no longer just want company
What if I want more?
What if I need more?
What if
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